Divorce tragedy

Today I went to pack some stuff to move. It was very emotional as I've been uprooted twice and told I had to leave or else. I was told by my roommate that I needed to go to the gym and get a job that I can feel better. For the time bieng I'm almost sure I have a job I applied for and waiting for the background check to clear. I was also told he still wants to have lunch once in awhile and I have to wonder if it's out of guilt or genuineness or me bieng naive. I was told that I was given chances to change in February but I know if it wasn't for his brother things wouldn't have gotten where they have as the brother is going through a divorce and may b bitter or otherwise and wants a piece of the action. Whatever the reason is everything we do to someone else will b rewarded 10 times what they dished out. I'm not hoping for it but it's what life is and predestined for. I feel really sad and depressed not over this person but the fact I give a 100 percent to my ex husband and to this roommate/ex boyfriend and I get kicked in the teeth left to bleed face down in the dirt. I lost my home during marriage I get invited to stay w then my boyfriend/ roommate after his parents bought him a house and paid his way to the status he had now. I wish I had parents and a family that had my back like his w an inheiratance of 6 to 12 million in the sac per child 3 boys. Regular people like me eat dirt and the only one who cares is the one I'm staying w who doesn't judge me and accepts me for who I am. I don't know abt life or y I'm here I wish hard I had done things differently. I feel low bad ugly worthless and unworthy. When will my luck change?