Divorce tragedy

Last night I drank till I fell asleep. I talked to a couple of friends before I went to bed. I'm not saying it's the answer but I needed to b numb. I was told that I'm to b disrespected because I deserve it by my the one I live withs maid bcz she is protecting him. Her only interest is the inheiratance that she knows she's a part of. She told me this herself and that the one I live w will always always take or pick her over me and I better watch out. I was also told a yr ago by the one I live with who was a boyfriend at one time "we r 2 different people" "we have nothing in common" "u need to find someone else" can anyone tell me y someone I have a common interest with now who likes me for me and doesn't tell me I'm unattractive is now a bad thing. No one should have to feel like they have to b guilty for talking to someone who lifts them up. And y is it an assumption that when u hang out w the opposite sex that it's assumed that something has to b going on. I feel valued finally by someone who has almost exact similar interests but yet I'm wrong because the one I live with can't accept what I'm about or accept me for me. I'm human I have feelings and rejection hurts. I never would've started talking to someone else if things would've stayed the same between us and not told to find someone else. Just because u find someone of the opposite sex to talk to doesn't mean u have to feel guilty about it. I need to start valuing myself more. I'm starting classes for real estate soon and if I make it that would make me feel on top of the world and I can start building myself up instead of tearing myself down and made to feel I'm not worthy