yesterday was really hard as i went through a panic attack. I didnt know why but after my counselor talked w me, I realized im doing everything by myself and only have a limited time to figure myself out before im cut off from the alimony. I know one thing im not going to scare myself into fearing life. I do have plans to get into real estate school and was told the test for federal and state licensure isnt easy but i havent even tried but when i do im going to go all out to get there. Nothings impossible and the fear of losing a husband who cheated on you isnt worth letting them dictate your life. Im also going to consider a power womens group thats here in havasu that uplifts each other into becoming successful with resources to help me get where i need to be. Panic attacks are still with me but overcoming it and marching on is what i need to do