Divorce tragedy

Yesterday was my friends anniversary and she asked me to celebrate w her. Before that I went to a friends 100 miles away bcz he was there for me at my darkest hr and he needed cataract surgery and. Was there to take him my roommate is looking for any and all reasons to kick me out I can't b myself it depresses me bcz my roommate holds my going out w my friends against me bcz he's a truck driver and can't control his life bcz he's on the road and doesn't want to b. But it's my fault bcz I'm not chained to the house bieng monitored by my every move do as I say or else. I'm constantly bieng told I'm wrong I wish I could change my circumstances but now I can't. I just got told today I won't make it in real estate. I think there is jealousy going on bcz he wants a career again but can't and I feel undermined by that. I feel like no matter how hard I try I will b knocked down when do I get a chance to stand strong y do I let people get to me. I know one thing I hope and pray that soon I'll b free I'm so depressed bcz I feel like I did when I was bieng abused at home when I was little and made to feel bad just for living which is y I ended up in the hospital last week for a mental breakdown